lesbiaines:

look. look.

• Cas doesn’t go to sports events, usually, but he goes to every one of Dean’s swim meets even before they start dating. He hides in his huge sweaters and pushes up his glasses and blushes bright red when Dean looks at him while waiting on the blocks.
  
• Cas is a little bit Soft, and he isn’t very tall, so he’s sort of uncomfortable with his body and won’t go any further than heavy making out once they do start dating. He offers every once in a while to get Dean off, but Dean tells him that he shouldn’t feel obligated to and that he’ll respect Cas’s boundaries and is prepared to wait until Cas is comfortable enough with his body for Dean to return the favor.
• Cas counts the first time Dean makes him come as a religious encounter. They’re both almost fully clothed, Cas on his stomach on Dean’s king-size bed, moaning his pleasure to Dean’s apartment as Dean fingers him into a sobbing, shaking mess of need and desire for more. Later, after Cas has stopped trembling, Dean shows him how to wrap a hand around his erection and make Dean come too.
• The first time Dean sees Cas naked, his little stomach rolls and the stretch marks on his hips and arms, he pushes Cas back onto the bed and kisses him all over, in all the places that he knows Cas is insecure about. Instead of trying to contain his tears, Cas lets them fall and then pulls Dean up to kiss him by the hair, finally happy with how he feels around Dean.
• Now, Cas still comes to every one of Dean’s swim meets, and still blushes every time Dean looks at him and winks from behind the blocks, but now it’s Dean’s huge sweaters he’s swamped in, and he gets to kiss Dean in congratulations after every race.